3.15.2003
 
I'm tired of these shallow relationships I have with people I barely know. They are completely lacking of substance. I know none of their last names. I know nothing of their likes/dislikes. The time that I spend with them finds me in a druken stupor of sorts, looking for fulfillment... a real connection where I can say, "hey, I know exactly what you mean."

I really need to eliminate f*ck, sh*t, and f*ckin sh*t from my vocabulary... or at least save them for when I am so overwhelmed with emotion that I just need to get something out of my system. I know I can be well-spoken. Maybe I just need the right conversation? Anyway...
03:13 |

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3.14.2003
 
There's got to be something more. Don't you think? The answer seems obvious, but I'm not so sure that is't that simple.
I'm beginning to despise these deeply pensive moods.

Ah damn. I hate to end it on such a serious note. Let's go shopping for some CD's!!
02:01 |

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3.11.2003
 
Well it's been awhile. Don't know why, really. Just the same old stuff I guess. Trying to cut back on drinking, trying to go to the gym. We'll see how that goes. Stayed dry this past weekend, save for one beer, which I'm not counting, because I didn't get drunk. Although shit, I did have a Thutini at Thu's place on saturday, which got me goin. "Oh well," he sighs as he cautiously gets back on his horse.

I've been thinking more and more about what motivates people and in turn, what motivates me. Why do I get up every morning to go to work? I don't do it to be negative or to try to convince myself that I am doing something that I'm not particularly interested in; that I know for certain. It's more of a "well things can only get better" kind of thing. I mean, who knows what the hell I'll be capable of when I finally do find something I like?

In other news... booked a flight, booked a room. Destination: Vegas
Man, I'm like a dope fiend trying to sober up on a vacation in Nicaragua! Ben, you dumbass...
01:09 |

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Blogs:
TeleJunkie
sir nods-a-lot
Danny Boy
Funny Coats
Dlee
Chung

Music:
Elliott Smith
Nick Drake
Norah Jones
Goh
DMB

Food:
Wahoo's
IN-N-OUT Burger
Pizz'a Chicago
Amici's
Chavez Supermarket
Gochi (coming soon)
Hobee's
Naan n Curry

Females:
1) Natalie Portman
2) Norah Jones
3) Marisa Tomei
4) Jennifer Beale