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5.25.2005

So Lisa and Ryan got married this past weekend. I am happy for them. They will have a very devout Christian family... though I think I overheard someone saying Ryan's parents are Buddhist. I don't know how well I will fit in. The people in the wedding party were nice.

They got married in Temecula. It was really hot! Like 95, but dry. Had a few hiccups, but what wedding doesn't? My sister handled it much better than I expected. I spent most of Saturday and Sunday feeling useless and bored. Lots of waiting around. Didn't get crazy for me until about 2 o'clock on Sunday. My tux didn't get picked up and I thought I broke Lisa's car. This didn't help me feel any less useless, but everything worked out okay in the end.

Ryan's parents are funny... especially his dad. Ryan's brother, Simon, makes money off of pyramid schemes. Kinda creepy. He made a toast at the reception. It was really long, but he is a good public speaker. I didn't give a toast. Kind of wanted to, but didn't have anything prepared. I probably would've said something about how I was appreciative of how the wedding brought our family together. I wouldn't have said anything about how I felt like I was losing my sister (again), regardless of how people always say they are gaining a brother/son/etc. I would've opened with, "Well Lisa, what can I say? You've been like a sister to me..." Ha ha.

My dad cried at the rehearsal dinner (he'd had a couple drinks). That was a first. Refreshing, in a way...

Random morbid thought from the airport, waiting for our outbound flight: if our plane crashes and my parents and I were to die, would the wedding still go on, or would it be delayed?

Spent Monday at Half Moon Bay with Thu and Lesley. What a great day! We saw a guy in the parking lot getting a hummer. Aya and Goh came over after dinner to hang out too.

Spent yesterday on the couch watching season 4 of Seinfeld. For me, the show is beginning to lose its novelty. Today I am back at work, pretty bored.

Need to clean my apartment this weekend.
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5.20.2005

Spent the last half hour fixing the template for this blog. I also edited my lists: dropped Ms. Knightly from the list of females. Nothing personal. Added some new places to the food list. Rearranged my music list. DMB dropped a few spots, because of the lastest album, which didn't impress me. Added some blogs of friends. There are more, but these are the only ones that get updated somewhat regularly.

Now it is almost time to go home. Brilliant.

I just got a phone call from a restricted number. I answered and they hung up without saying anything. Annoying. Now I am going to wonder who the hell it was for the next two hours. That is why I don't answer calls from restricted numbers.
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I don't know if I've ever been this bored at work. I actually signed onto AIM this afternoon to chat with people for about half an hour. I have stuff to do, I just have no motivation. This is a problem, obviously.

I wonder how long the high would last if I were to turn in my two weeks notice. I'm guessing less than two weeks, which means by the time I actually quit, I may actually want my job back. That would really, really suck.

On a brighter note, I was chatting with Bob, and he said he and Julie are going to have a baby in October. Wow! Wowwee wowee wow! I should call Julie.

On a dimmer note, I also found out the two Dereks I know broke up with their respective girlfriends. Derek F had been with his girlfriend for like 5 years. That is a long time. It is too bad it did not work out. She was cool. The weird thing is I just talked to him on the phone and he didn't mention it. Maybe he was drunk at the time. Either he or I (or both of us) are drunk more often than not when we call each other. I hear he has been partying a lot since the breakup. I wonder if he is, as they say, drinking his troubles away. I wonder if he cried about it. Probably.

Lisa gets married this Sunday at high noon (cue spaghetti western theme). Not sure what time it is going to be, actually, but it's supposed to be pretty damn hot right now in Temecula. Like low 90s. I hope there will be people I want to talk to at the wedding. Having to make small talk all weekend will take years off of my life.

I think I'll go home early today, if I can think of something to do at home besides the shmee.
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5.18.2005

Reading old entries is weird. I used to think I felt old and bitter. How naive. My old entries are full of useless, immature, pseudo-clever babble (whereas "pseudo-clever" is actually genuinely clever). I am so much bitterer now. Yes, that's a word. I declare a blog renaissance, starting.... now.

So, almost two years... you'd think I'd have a lot to talk about. Sure, a lot has happened, but nothing I feel like writing about. However, considering that this is supposed to be a journal of some sort, I'll write anyway. I'll work backwards because I can't remember exactly what happened after August of 2003.

My most recent project has been interning with a family friend, Dr. Lee, at his acupuncture practice. It is over already. It lasted about 4 or 5 weeks, 3-4 hours each Saturday morning. I was trying to get a feel for what it would be like to be an acupuncturist. It would be nice to be able to help people. I learned that there are a lot of underlying politics no matter what you do. That sucks, but that's life I guess. Life only in America? I've toyed with the idea of moving out of the country. Funniest patient: a family came in because their son was wetting the bed.

Next up: training for a sprint triathlon. It's on June 18th in Pleasanton. 400 meter swim, 11 mile bike, 3 mile run. I hope I can wake up and make it there on time. Perhaps I will stay in a Holiday Inn the night before so I don't have to wake up at 5:30. I've spent the last month or so trying to stay off of my right knee, which gave out on me during my second training session at Rancho San Antonio. I was running with Masa. He is a beast. I've been giving myself acupuncture treatments using points prescribed by Dr. Lee, and it has helped a lot. Acupuncture is cool. I am back at the gym now. Strangely enough, I have only gained 2 lbs. over the past month and I've been eating a lot of junk food. I think my muscles have turned into fat. Ok, that's enough about that.

I've been cooking a lot at home, partly to stop spending so much money, and also to get better at cooking. I make a pretty good mushroom risotto now. I also made pizza once from scratch. The crust came out too thick and tasted really 'floury'. I will try again.

Ken and Naomi got engaged! They had a party. I made spring rolls. They came out okay. I don't really like parties. I wasn't very comfortable. I felt like I was back in high school, trying to find a place to sit during lunch. The only part that was fun for me was talking to Dave King, his girlfriend and what's-her-face... uh, pixie girl. Starts with a C... Damn. This is going to bug the shit out of me. Anyway, I had fun telling versions of the truth (read: lies).

Takeo and Sayaka got married! They had a wedding (no shit). There was a girl there with boobs that were too big for her body (fake? couldn't tell) that got wasted, or so I heard. She had braces. Sayaka's brother Kouta bought her a car. Crazy. I almost cried during the reception, but only because everyone else was crying. That shit was like, contagious. Sayaka's mom and other brother passed away. That's why everyone was crying. I think it was the first time I saw Kentaro cry.

Okay, that brings us back to March. I think it rained a lot. January and February, too. I was smoking a lot. Not cigarettes, the other stuff. Oh! I took a month off of smoking between March and April. That's worth mentioning. I celebrated with brownies that Thu and Lesley made.

Christmas: didn't really celebrate Christmas this year. Actually, I remember thinking that I'm not going to participate in gift-giving anymore.

Jeff and Brandi had a baby! It was a boy, Landon Charles. Born on Thanksgiving. How about that! Spent Thanksgiving morning at the hospital. It was kinda boring. Talked to Brandi's dad about building a fire pit and mountain biking.

This is going to take forever. I'm only doing highlights now.

I moved into my new apartment in August '04. I spent awhile furnishing it. Bought a new TV. That was kind of a mistake. I don't regret it, but I wouldn't cry if I didn't have it anymore.

Dave and Karen got married! They, too, had a wedding. It was a big wedding. I played a song. I think I did okay, but I was really nervous. I don't think I like performing publicly anymore. That wedding was fun though. I had a few drinks later into the reception and danced a bit. That's what happens when I drink. I grabbed one of the caterers and tried to dance with her.

Summer 2004... I think I went to Vegas or something. Whatever. Oh yeah, went to Vegas in November '04 for Amit's bachelor party. Lisa called to tell me she got engaged while I was on the plane. I got a speeding ticket on the way to the airport. Dammit, Amit. Just kidding. Not his fault... Yes it is.

New Year's: Thu and I had a party at the townhouse in Milpitas. Good turn out. Good times. Junko and Naomi got drunk. That was funny. Ken's friend Akira got wasted. Passed out under the dining table with his legs sticking out.

November '03: I started going out with this girl, Roberta, who I met at one of Goh's shows at Ireland's 32. She showed up a few times with her friend, ... damn. I am bad with names. Oh, Ros. Short for Rosalyn probably. Goh and Ros had hung out a few times. I was immediately attracted to Roberta, if I remember correctly. I remember feeling jealous that Nick W talked to her all night. Ha ha. Hew Thorton (sp?) asked her out though, before I got up the nerve to, and they went out a few times. Then they stopped dating, and I asked her out. It's pretty fuzzy when I think about it now. I remember her giving me her number at Gordon Biersch. I remember taking her to Cirque de Soleil for Christmas. Oh, so that's what happened after January of '04. I was pretty bummed out cuz she wanted to be just friends. Disappeared for a week. Checked into a hotel for the weekend and licked my wounds. It seemed so much more dramatic back then. I'm such a pussy sometimes. Actually, I think we only went out a few times. I remember one of the ways I made myself feel better was to tell myself that she only used me to help her paint her old apartment and move into a new one. I don't think it was true, but the thought of it was funny and made me laugh. Man, she had a lot of stuff to move. After the new year she invited me out to the symphony because she had promised to while we were dating. I probably shouldn't have gone, although I had the best vegetarian risotto that I've ever had afterwards at Jardinere. Sometimes she calls me. I don't pick up, and I usually wait a week or so before I call back. It's not very nice, but honestly I don't really feel like talking to her anymore. I should probably just tell her so.

Wow, how cathartic. Like a really big fart. I think I'm all caught up now. I'll try to write at least once a week from now on.
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5.15.2005

If this blog was a house plant, it would be dead right now. Time for me to sow new seeds. *Plink*
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