b e n l y........
...............an outlet, of sorts
6.20.2006
Well, turns out my attraction to Aimee was a bit inspired after all. We were hanging out a bit and calling each other, but it was pretty shortlived. Nice while it lasted though. Cloud 9 and all that... felt like I had a purpose again.
I had some concerns though... she'd just broken up with her boyfriend I could get distracted at school, and a breakup could possibly be pretty awkward are we really right for each other
Turns out she was thinking about a lot of the same things I was, and this whole time I'd been afraid she was too immature. I am such an ass. Should've given her more credit. I think I was also holding back a bit too, cuz of all the stuff I was worried about. And of course I've been obsessing the past few days over whether I messed things up by doing so. But there's always going to be a reason not to date someone, right? I need to focus on what's right instead of what's wrong and just dive in. Take some risks goddammit. Especially since I only seem to meet someone I'm really attracted to about, what, once every two years? Jesus.
